Min Er

2011-07-08T23:44:00.002+08:00

Fuck all these shit!

FYP report
UT2
FYP logs
Class work

Crashing in progress...

tearful and fearful

2011-05-03T11:37:00.002+08:00

I feel shut off from this world. Although, I know I am in the real world. Maybe I don't belong here in some way. Not the first time, I get this feeling.

So, here I am, in school. Doing I-don't-know-what. Not listening in class, doing all those things that don't make senses. I know I am suppose to be in class, but my mind isn't. My tears, I am controlling you. Please bear with me, until Im home. My mind, back to class please. Feel so tearful, feel fearful.

let me figure it out

2011-05-03T11:01:00.004+08:00

All that I feel, all that I think was not me being too sensitive. I am not thinking too much, I am right. So now, let me figure it out... Hais..

2011-04-29T21:52:00.002+08:00

Too bored!
I am at Lx's house now. Waiting for him and Joel to finish training and come back. Maybe later can meet Valerie. :)
From just now I have been doing my RJ and my log. Wah.. Finally finish everything that I need to do. Feel better.
Anyway Im tired. Don't know is because the series of events happening or just me. Okay, cannot say tired. Jiayou. So far, not late for school, after the first day. Sadly, one C grade super unhappy, sucks man. Next lesson, she gonna get it from me. Haha.. Not so serious la. Byes.

should be back on track

2011-04-25T00:29:00.002+08:00

Min Er,

This is the last sem, put in your best effort. No distractions, No slacking, Work harder. Don't be late, wake up early. Reach class early, it is better than being late. Rmb Late means no A. So sleep early, wake up early. And control your diet. Don't disappoint your mother anymore, must control and respect. Be good. Don't get angry, appreciate everything. Work smart, Think smart.

Best regards,
Myself

Everyday you learn something new, just whether you realize it.

2011-04-21T22:15:00.002+08:00

"Everyday you learn something new, just whether you realize it."
Came out with this line after a talk with linxun.

Today I learn something new. I went to my mother, wanting to ask something. It took me so much courage and time until I came to my question. I just can't say it. Not to my mom. I don't know why. I plan what to say, already practice so many times, but when it comes to the real thing, it is so much different.

Anyway, after telling lx what happen, he analyse and told me that the way I think was not really mature. From 15 years old, everyone told me I was mature, I think differently, I think far, I think like a adult. All that... But this time, he said I wasn't that mature. So I think again, actually yea he's right.

I should change. Somehow, someday, slowly. I need some motivation to do so, I need the "will". Howhowhow. Hmm.. I don't.

Anyway, it is true that Everyday we are learning something new, just whether we realize it and think about it.

Juggling

2011-04-08T14:35:00.004+08:00

My fyp log is pending from mon to now. Opps.. Feel bad also, faci so good. Okok, will do it after blogging. Busy week mah.. Fyp site visit and so on. Sick from last week not recover yet. My throat and cough, I still think the Doc cheat my money abit. Hais..

Went to Rebel with Jasmine on Wed. Saw alot of old friends, pri sch mostly. Haha.. Fun ah.. Went in so early. Enter from Rebel, so no free drink. Z got 5 drinks. My friend also dun wana give me just one. Ass. Anyway we got our way. With influence with Jas, I like Jaggerbomb too. Hehehe!

Rebel to 4am, slpt at 5.30am then force to be wake up at 8. But in the end, I give up, damn shag, need rest. But fun siol~ Haha.. Where got people wear jacket to club de.. Haha.. Worried and tired face uh.. Juggling all at a time. I promise myself my grades wouldn't be affected.

I smile. When you touch my face, with a smile.

Cooking so not me

2011-04-05T00:24:00.003+08:00

Today I cook Carbonara. Hmm.. Wasn't nice, was abit dry and noodle abit too much. I think it was like a failure, Sorry :( At least edible la, haha, not very nice. I cook side dishes too. Beef and egg. Side dish came out more successful than pasta. Pasta source is hard to cook la. Should get those ready done one, less risky. Hahaha..

I couldn't finish eating my pasta, but LinXun finish eating two bowl. He say was not bad what, quite okay. But I think is either he's too hungry or he finish it not to make me feel sad. But, I really can't eat the noodles down, too dry. I left mine for awhile, so was even more dry.

But really thankful that he finish it. First time cooking alone, hmm.. I should work harder next time. I promise I'll make smth better the next time. Sorry and thank you. Hope no stomach ache or anything tmr. :O

After eating, went to bathe then head down to 264, meet Joel Valerie Justin and Mic there. Drink and chat like usual. Started some Army talk. After Lx say he got Gold for the IPPT (not sure what's it) test. So proud of him uh.. Not easy and he's injured. Oh, heart pain. Grr.. Okay, this is so drama, Im so not that kind of person.
Anyway, he drive me back home, eyes hardly opening. He's super tired after two guard duty. Fri to Sat then another last min one on Sun to Mon. No break for him. Ahh.. Very dangerous ah.. I very scared to let him drive like that ah.. I wan my driving lic soon man, I also wana drive ah..

My voice still very sexy, damn pain so throat. Still havent recover, I think the doc cheat my money ah.. If Lx nv go see doc soon, I will bring him there soon, his knee ah.. Aiyo.. And I wana faster recover, I wana eat chocolate, all in the frigde. I just act that I cannot see, but in my heart, I know is there and I wana eat!!! Haha..

Tmr going to do my FYP project thingy again.. Havent write my Log. Hais super sian.. Need to go my ah ma house to eat dinner, so when should I do my Log then. Hais.. Okok soon ah.. Ate that Medicine, feel like slping soon.. Yawn!

Happy Birthday LinXun

2011-03-29T17:46:00.002+08:00

Happy Birthday LinXun!
Today is his birthday. At first he had off day, in the end have a test to take, so no more off day. Anyway hope he enjoy his 22 and hope to celebrate with him every year. Best wishes. Don't be so gong. Hehe.. Loves.

His Surprise BBQ

2011-03-27T01:24:00.002+08:00

The stupid boy read my blog. From the Superman to the quarrel days. So now he know where I usually bad mouth him liao. So sad, no freedom. He stress out some words hor. Lx is so handsome, so sweet okay..

My Surprise for Lx didnt really work out. Im lousy at lying to him. He find something fishy, then I know I GG liao. But i spend so much time and effort planning, so angry that it didnt work out well. Stupid Pasir Ris Park.! They cannot find the location so was late. So in the end was just a BBQ session. Super nice cake and was so full.

Then went back to rest, was so tired. I think and plan from the start of March! Haha.. But at least he appreciate alot and he loves me alot. HAHA! Out of point, I know. :P
Headache, too tired liao. Duno what to type liao, so I should go and slp. Night Night.

I love my Superman, Stupid boy.

The Bond

2011-03-21T00:45:00.003+08:00

Actually I always thought that this group of friends really have strong friendship. They can just slack at the same place everyday just to eat and chat. It may seems nothing to them, but to a outsider, they are really awesome friends. One call they can really meet up. They don't need a reason. Now, even if there are problems, misunderstanding, they can talk it out. Although at first, it was not easy for everyone to throw their pride and speak from their heart, but at least one by one they did it, together. I really learn alot from them. Friendship, this word, it is not so fragile. Friendship can be stronger than misunderstanding. If we are really friends, you should accept whatever each other have, each other weakness. Not to compare and complaint about things. Even if you really don't like about something, keep it. Let time change things, if still not able to change the situation, then some communication is needed. Really from your heart. I see their bond. We as outsider have no power. If the bonding is there, it will be there. Things will be fine after that. That's Friendship.

3-3

2011-03-04T22:04:00.002+08:00

3-3-2010 was a special day.
So 3-3-2011 I rmb.
3-3 is Heart-to-Heart day with someone ;)
A secret, only that person will know.

Boyfriend

2011-02-15T01:29:00.001+08:00

Lover

2011-02-15T01:01:00.003+08:00

Today is Valentine's Day! :D

14 Feb 2011

I Love You, Yeo Lin Xun!!!

My sweet sweet cute cute gong gong bf ;D

HAHA!

I had Ut3 today at 4.30pm.

I start my test at 4.49pm.

I was 19mins late, left with 41mins to do.

Sports Admin somemore.

I duno even know what Im writing.

Hope at least a B or C for it, pls.

...

After the paper, I saw a msg from dear.

He called and said that he don't have nights out.

He ask me what I am doing, where I am going.

I said I am going home.

Maybe get some sleep.

I thought it was normal questions he would ask.

But this time he ask slightly more times.
So sometime is wrong, but he say he cannot book out ah..

So I didn't ask much.

I really thought that he cannot come out ah..

Since he cannot come out, I was thinking to go my grandma house.

So I took my time, slack with Dan Hui for awhile.

6.30 we reach Woodlands Mrt.

Dan Hui and Me slack till around 7.30

Then dear call me.

He: What you doing?

Me: Talking to my friend at Causeway.

He: Oh.. Where's Causeway?

Me: Woodlands la. Haha.. No going to Malaysia. (Kidding)

He: Oh.. Ya la, go Malaysia ah..

Me: What are you doing?

He: I outside your house. Actually I got Nights Out ah..

Me: HUH? Really? I thought you cannot come out...

OMG!

So this gong gong person go to my house and realise I wasn't at home.
He never ask what I doing to double confirm I was on my way home.

Smart loh.. I feel sorry that he spend his time going to my hs.

He go straight to my hs and came back to Commonwealth to meet me again.

Then he go back to Camp. Poor baby.

He gave me present. I thought is a nonsense present.

Haha.. But his sister was with him when he bought it.

So the present was normal.

Super cute la, I dun wan let him go.

Teh him, he give me that face. So cute!

HAHAHA!

Waited my bus to come, which take damn long.

Then he go JP meet his camp mates.

At least I spend some time with him.

Sweet that he woke up to say Happy Valentine's Day at 00.00

Sweet that he plan something for me.

Sweet that he bought something for me, when I didn't.

Sweet for everything, because he is Yeo Lin Xun!

Thanks!

Love you baby.

Convo with my Doc

2011-02-09T17:54:00.001+08:00

Taking Temperature...

Doc: 38.9
Me: Oh.
Doc: Which one do you have, sore throat, cough or flu?
Me: Ya.
Doc: You said ya, so which one..
Me: Ya, ALL.
Doc: WELL DONE! Full House! (Doc you gamble too much liao.)
Me: Huh.. Haha.. Okay.
3 days MC and alot of strong Medicine given.

FML.

The tears in her eyes make her realize.

CNY sick

2011-02-06T22:46:00.002+08:00

Chinese New Year!

Chu dui everyday.

SICK LIAO! SIAN.

At this kind of time.

Fever, sore throat, cough, cold plus plus plus.

Sibei SHAG la.. Tmd.

Really cannot tahan also have to tahan.

FML.

2011-02-02T00:29:00.001+08:00

According to LongShi, 兔儿旺旺 -> 2011 !

Happy Chinese New Year! :D

never ending fear

2011-02-01T23:10:00.002+08:00

After being hurt, the scar are just hidden well.

You have no idea, the scar and the fear you left for me.

Until now, I still fear.

What if he leave me like how you did...

How am I going to take this again...

This fear looks never ending...

How can I stop the fear in me.?

Even thought I know he is not like you, but I still fear.

That's the power of fear.

pinky is hurt

2011-01-30T21:49:00.004+08:00

Doc Ting advise.

Went to see Chinese Doc.

My pinky finger is hurt.

Like getting worse uh..

Now still pain. How ah.?

Hais.. Cannot wu long some more.

Doc say cannot carry heavy stuff.

I say so dun need go sch ah..

Coz need to carry laptop to sch ma.. Haha..

Cny coming, but no cny mood. sian.

dragon dance season loh..

Everyday should be meaningful

2011-01-26T19:01:00.002+08:00

Everyday should be meaningful. I have a book that I write down what happen each day. Not a diary not, just some schedule book.

I think I sprained my finger, little finger. I don't know how, don't know when. But it is super pain today! I try to rub and I can hear the bone snap sound. It's more than normal pain liao. I thought was nothing yesterday, but today prove me wrong. I should do something about it soon.

what should i say

2011-01-21T23:32:00.002+08:00

You're already so tired.

You send me home liao, you ask me where I want to go.

Since you alr so tired, then what you want me to say...

I just keep quiet the whole time.

nineteen years old

2011-01-17T02:11:00.006+08:00

Ting Min Er is 19 years old now.

Starting today...

I will be wiser, prettier and better.

Too much things happen when I was 18 years old.

Happy, sad, good friends, lose friends and breakout.

18 years old end off well, now 18 i will be better.

Really love my friends that went through with me,

all the hard times... I know u all care.

Thanks so much! All that help me.

Really appreciate all of you.

Best thing that happen last year was meeting YLX!

He might not be sweet, might not be very handsome.

But I know he care for me truly, he trust me and he loves me.

That's all I need.

"Love you."

♥

5 Jan 2011 Valerie's day

2011-01-04T23:56:00.001+08:00

♥HAPPY HAPPY 21st Birthday Valerie!!!

You're my awesomely cool and crazy best friend & da jie. I will never forget about those memories we have, let's make 2011 crazy and awesome. I wish our friendship never part no matter what.. (Please.) You have BEeN through so much, I hope you'll find your 3 coins ;) But don't forget me, we always have each other. Only we understand our language uh.. Haha.. We will have a blasting night later! Hehe.. Best wishes! Lastly, SONG BO 21 liao.! Bleah! ;P

Love you ♥

sian about school

2011-01-03T09:33:00.001+08:00

Sian sia School :C

a big sad sad face

I seriously dun miss school at all!

a new year

2011-01-02T01:13:00.002+08:00

There is two wish I have for this year.

One is not to lose any friends, especially close ones.

Second is I hope things won't go wrong and be successful.

Really hope so.

Happy Birthday Junaina

2010-12-28T02:12:00.002+08:00

Happy Birthday to my dear, Junaina.

26 Dec is the day she finally turn 18.

Have been waiting for so long uh..

Haha! No diff, just that in the eyes of law, she is legal age.

Not a minor anymore. Wth this is so Law.

Okay I need to study for UT soon uh.. If not i will die!

We went to pasir ris lagoon food village to eat seafood.

Was damn full because I ate before going.

His parents send him to where he need to wait for the bus,

and send me to pasir ris lagoon.

I was late! Sorry la, Jun.

Hajar was a surprise for Jun.

Last year Hajar celebrate birthday with us also.

She finish the rest of the food for us, as usual.

She eat super alot la. Black hole in her stomach.

After eating we went to Karaoke.

We was Screaming more than singing. Haha..

Specially me. I duno why so high la. But damn FUN sia!!!

I dun mind doing it again.. We treat the place like club.

Dancing and singing there.

Sing some stupid song like Barbie.

We laugh at videos!

Super awesome man!

Today we went to Sheesha place.

Maryann Weihao Shaun Joshua Hans and I

was there to celebrate Jun's birthday.

Just a gathering and catch up section.

Cool la.

Joshua Shaun Hans Jun and I played

True or Dare.

Fine, we did stupid things and ask stupid things.

Interesting and Funny.

I think I need to put my camera safely man.

Quite a few things inside uh.. Haha!

He trust me.

I smiled to that.

Although I expected more from that question.
But nvm. :)

2010-12-26T15:50:00.002+08:00

A catch-up section :)

At my ah ma house got sell the small X'mas blinking hat.

So cute! I took the blue one.

HOHOHO! Merry X'mas!

This year, the best X'mas.

2010-12-26T01:24:00.003+08:00

This year, the best Christmas I ever had.

Just a simple and sweet one is enough.

Thanks Santa. Thanks dear.

I got a big big Stitch, Stitch Pop up stickers and
iLuv Bubble Gum2 Pink ear piece.

The Stitch was a big surprise.

He hide it in his car boot.

I was wondering why he stand beside his boot and unlock the boot.

Until he open and say this is for you.

I was really surprise by it.

I didn't see that coming.. Haha..

It was the Stitch that we saw at Great World City ytd.

He went back to buy it.

He told me he lost his way, but actually he went there to get it.

It is so expensive. I know because blur him didn't take out the price tag.

Nvm la, Cute what! Haha :D

Stitch is cute, soft and huggy.

Thanks ♥

This is Christmas Eve.

2010-12-24T14:25:00.003+08:00

What am I suppose to do?

To go or not to go?

And where to go?

If I go... If I don't go...

HAIS! Tmd.

Christmas this year is what I have been looking for.

I even prepared present.

Today is Christmas Eve.

I hate deciding. I hope things are planned that I don't need to make a decision.

But I am troubled about it.

How?

Crazying

2010-12-23T23:04:00.003+08:00

Too much fun for a day!!!

Me and Valerie did so much crazy thing.!

There is a secret to what we did ;)

Laughing and laughing like the end of the world!

CRAZYING

There is a video that I upload in FB.

Finally get to upload it. Stupid file make it so troublesome.

Here it goes... ...Here we go again!!

:DDD

Pls dun let anything go wrong.

2010-12-21T16:21:00.002+08:00

Don't rush to mend things up, let things cool down first.

When you have the heart to, it is never too late.

She's too tired and not feeling well.

Things will be fine.

Please don't let anything go wrong.

Bruise

2010-12-19T22:55:00.002+08:00

Bruise from the last Volleyball trg :(

2010-12-19T20:03:00.003+08:00

I don't want you to go.

How I wish you don't need to go back.

Silence can be all, I just want to by your side.

Looking at you and disturbing you.

When the red lights are on..

Today we watch TRON! So cool. Hehe..

that time watch the next three days

The Next Three Days interesting la.

Because I was with you.

Sad

2010-12-18T22:26:00.003+08:00

I shouldn't.

What are you expecting, planning, preparing, when there is nothing is coming.

Last minute uh. I am not going to reply.

Disappointment more than anger.

Feeling very sad now. Nothing can help.

I should dry my hair and sleep.

I hate myself being foolish.

Too foolish to hope, to expect.

When Expectation doesn't meet Reality.

The world don't care, because this is the reality.

When will I ever change?

Holiday and X'mas

2010-12-17T19:15:00.002+08:00

LAST DAY OF SCHOOL FOR THIS YEAR!!!

WOOOO~

This is the day I have been looking forward for.

Yesh! Tmr I still need to go sch, but it doesnt matter la.

A sch workshop.

Dun feel like working anymore. So ma fan.

Holiday rocks my socks!

PARTY!

X'mas is coming. Woo~

Today my class have a exchange gift exchange.

Damn funny.

I got a EPIC present from Doris. :(

I want my chocolate back!

I love Chocolate. I think my blood is made up of chocolate!

HEHE!

2010-12-16T13:28:00.003+08:00

I am wondering if that decision is too rush.

but...

Days that you are not here, just goes so slow.

quiting work liao

2010-12-15T23:08:00.003+08:00

RJ Question: What are your plans for the holiday break?

My holiday will be separate into two parts, one is study and second is enjoy like the world is ending. I am going to party!!! Thank You! :D

I send a resignation msg to my boss. I fired him!

I don't want to work liao. I cannot choose the date I wana work.

He still can dun reply. Sucks la. I dun care!

Now I don't care already. I find excuses not to work.

It work as my plan that when I have a reason, I will quit. And it did happen.

When you're on the verge to give up, just hold on and don't give up,
because this is when miracles happen. :)

I almost gave up. But I am glad that you didn't.

2010-12-14T10:12:00.000+08:00

Zoukout

Valerie! :D

Love

2010-12-14T09:41:00.002+08:00

It's still like a dream.

Some part are still unreal.

I cannot believe it, still.

Like a dream.

But sure it is a dream come true.

Like what I wish for.

Something good at least.

Thanks for making things clearer.

I got a light shinning on me.

Shine a light on me~ (song)

Valerie was more happy than me uh.

First time I really cry in front of her.

First time I see her so happy also.

But my soul is kind of not back to me yet.

But I know I am Happy :)

Loves ♥

2010-12-13T00:45:00.003+08:00

Ting Min Er.

The exact same thing is happening again.

"Don't like the person more than he like you."

Out of everything, this is what i heard that i keep in mind.

I really don't know what I should do.

As you know, I hate making decision.

Because when the decision is wrong, you will hate yourself.

After warnings and warnings, I still don't learn my lesson, I still don't change.

I am being like a fool. Again.

I got a big intuition that I will cry very soon.
Good night.

Zoukout

2010-12-12T17:07:00.002+08:00

WOOO~!

ZOUKOUT

11 DEC 2010

Awesome fun.

my head is going to explode

2010-12-10T23:21:00.000+08:00

HEADACHE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2010-12-09T15:00:00.002+08:00

Out of reach, make me realise I was like a fool.

Like a fool, I thought that love was there.

At that time, you can just say, you don't love me.

I can leave early.

You make me sleep with a broken heart for so long.

Until I realise there was no reason for me to stay.

Our love end.

Maybe it didn't even start.

Maybe you didn't even love me.

Maybe it was one sided.

Whatever.

But now it doesn't really matters.

There is other reason for me now.

2010-12-08T19:28:00.003+08:00

Mission 1: Repair my bloody Samsung SMART phone

Mission 2: Renew my plan with a iphone 4 (16GB most likely)

Mission 3: Improve my bloody lousy grades

Valerie is at my home now. Going out! Song bo.

to be continued..

Okay, in sch now. damn tired.

Timbre + Zouk + Phuture

Zouk is damn BORING!

went with Val frens. SQ.

Saw that bastard that me n Joel wana kill.!

kena disturb.

whole sia know ___

Wah im surprise! by the number of ppl that know.

But they are all fun and friendly ppl.

all good looking and rich.

only one guy is not good looking!

so gay, so weird! dun like ttm.

damn tired. wana slp liao.

i dun wana work later!

spend like $70 plus ytd night.

I stand up strong again.

2010-12-08T01:04:00.000+08:00

I think I am more daring in life, in love. I don't why.

I guess I learnt it the hard way, real painful way I should say.

I guess I gone through the worse that nothing can be compared to be worse.

I stand up strong again.

not sure what plans are

2010-12-08T00:43:00.004+08:00

I am stress and tired about school and work. Not sure what plans are.

Not really stress maybe, just a little lost. Don't worry I will find my way.

I know that I need to pick up on my grades, because it totally drop, which sucks big time.. I am not sure if I should quit my part-time job at MapLeaf. It affected my health, my grades, my time, my friends and my life. But if I quit means no income, no money, no life. I want to spend my time earning some money, I don't want to always spend my parents money.

But the person at my work place is sometimes too much. I want to take one day off, like I owe them don't know how many thousands dollars like that. Still can blame me. Anything wrong in the shop, they can blame me, when I haven't see the shirt before. Like really, stop pushing the blame to newbies. I am totally innocent. I don't have time for my friends. I am so tired in class that I can fall asleep in class. My name and fall asleep in class really doesn't match. I don't like it. I really want to pull my grades up again.

Ting Min Er, you need to chiong for your A grades back!

Okay. This week sucks, one two days. I don't know why. Pointing middle finger to life.

I want my holiday! I want more time for me to sleep and rest.

Weekend also can la. I don't feel like working.

I want more free time. Too much, I am a butterfly.

I want freedom, not tied down by anything.

I think I am more daring in life, in love. I don't why.

I guess I learnt it the hard way, real painful way I should say.

I guess I gone through the worse that nothing can be compared to be worse.

I think maybe someone already gave up on me liao. He think that I got someone then I forget him. Or maybe he stop reading my blog liao. Because I didn't receive your msg anymore. Where you are? How are you? You're not tissue paper. I really care about you, still.

And someone have really no time for me liao. She got a boyfriend.

I guess it's okay la. As long as she is happy.

Maybe she don't need me that much already.

But just don't feel the same. She used to be there, always.

MISSY TING

FYL

2010-12-06T20:19:00.002+08:00

Hey Bitch stop disturbing our lives and stop spoiling my family.

You should get a life, cb.

Whatever your plans are, drop it and fuck off!

We drag this long enough, so it's time to give up Bitch.

I don't know are you still calling or disturb us.

But just fuck your ass off. I hate you to the max.
If I can kill someone in the world, don't hesitate, the person is you, cb.

Today, shit happens. Or it alr happen long ago. FYL.

Sorry sorry

2010-12-06T10:06:00.002+08:00

"You were once so close with us. You had never miss out any gathering and outing we had. You were always present. Why? It's disappointing."

I seriously feel so sorry that I miss out that day.

Im suppose to go out with u all.

A primary school gathering.

I feel the disappointment.

When I saw the comment, my tears almost rush out.

Please don't feel disappointed in me.

I really love u guys alot. I cannot lose u all.

Sorry Yong Kiong, Ledi, Sheng hui, Hui Fang, Andy, Gladys and everyone else.

SORRY! :,(

Junaina, my sweetest Chocoholic

2010-12-05T23:20:00.001+08:00

2010-12-05T23:03:00.002+08:00

"This is gonna be the last time i get to msg u this week uh.."

Awww.. Suddenly feel like tearing. Hais. I have to be strong.

2010-12-05T21:48:00.002+08:00

Live life to the fullest?

I live life to the fullest on Sat only.

I make sure of the whole Sat if possible.

Not everyday is Saturday.

to someone

2010-12-05T21:04:00.003+08:00

Sometimes, I feel guilty towards someone.

Wanted to msg you, but someone might be beside you.

So I don't know how to.

That person that reads my blog and that person that care for me in silence.

I know that the person is there, always.

We have promises, we have rules and we have fun talking.

You might be busy, but I do rmb that there is such a person here for me.

Only you know who the person is. By the word Promise.

Just wana ask how are you?

"Miss u la.."

2010-12-05T20:40:00.003+08:00

You forget the way,

You forget how to drive,

You forget what you're suppose to do,

But You didn't forget me.

미스 너

wait

2010-12-04T00:36:00.002+08:00

I don't mind waiting.

But I am just afraid that I am waiting for nothing.

Every night, I wait.

But sometimes, I am waiting for nothing.

Weekdays I have been waiting for Weekends.
I am waiting for you.

I hope we are heading to a certain direction, not no where.

If possible, I will see you tmr.

TIRED

2010-11-30T23:26:00.003+08:00

VERY TIRED!

CLASS, TEST, WORK, HOMEWORK, SLEEP.

AND THE CYCLE START AGAIN.

OMG! TRIED TTM. HAD ENOUGH.

Not enough sleep!

Ting Min Er is dozing off and sleeping in class.

Tell me when u see her like that?

Hais. Kneecap hurts. More and more. Shit.

Because of working?

MISSY TING

no msg today

2010-11-30T00:37:00.003+08:00

I feel stupid waiting for a msg everyday.

Why am i becoming stupid again?

I mean like, i duno how to say.

Im afriad it become a habit.

What if, you are the one who mia?

So im going through that dark place of horror again.?

Sighs.

when is weekends coming

2010-11-29T11:45:00.002+08:00

Im so burnt out.

So damn tired.

I really need break!

everyday slp so late.

everyday go sch and work.

one of the days, im going to pon sch.

just to slp at home.

today is a monday, i can't believe there is still a long way to go.

today is the first day of a weekday, im waiting for a weekends.

A: What do you do on weekends?

B: I love weekends. I enjoy myself and have fun.

A: What do you do on weekdays?

B: I wait for weekends...

look and smile

2010-11-29T11:40:00.003+08:00

we look at each other

we wanted to say something

we think of the same thing

but we just stare and smile

i just wish i had more time from you

but i understand

yes i do

so i will be strong

because i am stronger than before

so i can do so

i will do so

MISSY TING

2010-11-28T14:26:00.001+08:00

I guess my wish is coming true. :)

[M/V] 2PM "Without U" from DON'T STOP CAN'T STOP

2010-11-28T14:18:00.001+08:00

One Two

2010-11-26T10:12:00.001+08:00

Out of three.

One, Two.

No Three.

Maybe not yet.

Maybe never.

MISSY TING

fate

2010-11-26T09:57:00.002+08:00

After reading some blogs, my heart becomes sour.

Thinking of the past? Question mark. Not really actually.

Sometimes, I wish it didn't hurt that much.

Letting go is hard, but sometimes, Holding on is harder.

I believe in fate, so prove to me that it works. Hopefully.

Hopefully.

2010-11-26T09:52:00.000+08:00

Hopefully.

Valerie

2010-11-26T00:33:00.002+08:00

Valerie is her name.

Distance don't bring us apart.

Feelings don't bring us apart.

People don't bring us apart.

Fate brought us together.

And that's enough.

MISSY TING

2010-11-25T14:55:00.002+08:00

This sem I damn slack!

Omg. I cannot stand myself.

I need to wake up and chiong.

Ppt always anyhow do and always late.

CHAM LA!!!

What the hell am i doing? Shit!

Class and School is so boring.

I wana getaway.

Watch Unstoppable with Valerie ytd.

Coz she is in Singapore and my class end 11 plus.

Got a law essay, two pages, two thousands words.

Like a Kill!

Plus got a Law UT (test) today.

I didnt study. So cham.
Was complaining ytd.

Later Ut. I hope I dont screw it too bad.
I am damn scared that I will.

Law leh.. How to smoke through...

Friday is coming...

Don't know when im working or slacking.

It is up to boss to decide. TMD.

Should screw him man. So ma fan.

Tell me when im working la!

Let's see what's the plan...

Don't frown, I wana see you smile.

not the first step

2010-11-25T00:14:00.001+08:00

I feel like telling you I want to meet you.

I feel like telling you I miss you.

I feel like telling you that I fear.

But I don't want to take the first step...

January 17 Birthday Astrology

2010-11-24T10:44:00.004+08:00

Randomly, I am looking through this. Check it out.

http://entertainment.howstuffworks.com/january-17-birthday-astrology.htm
It is a January 17 Birthday Astrology.

Capricorns born on January 17 have incredible physical and emotional endurance and grasp the correlation between mental and physical energy. They trust their intuition more than their intellect. They continually put themselves "out there" to prove their abilities are undiminished.

Capricorn Information for January 17

You should embrace: Noble motives, intensity, high ideals
You should avoid: Vanity, negativity, adulation

Friends and Lovers

Despite their conservatism, January 17 people have an odd collection of friends. They enjoy looking outside of their realm of experience to find people who can show them life-lessons they may not otherwise learn. Romance is often unfulfilling; they demand loyalty, holding lovers to almost impossible standards.

Children and Family

People born on this date may keep their feelings regarding their family a secret. Episodes from their childhood often become the building blocks of opportunity. They have a tendency to overindulge their youngsters to make up for what they did not have.

Health

Keeping healthy is not just a matter of common sense for the people born on this date -- it's a spiritual quest. They want to be at the peak of conditioning, believing it affects every area of life, not only the physical aspects.

Career and Finances

January 17 people are career-oriented and often begin to plan professional goals when they are children. Secretly and systemically, they may spend years bending every effort toward a final goal. Money rarely plays a part in career choices for these people, but they have considerable ability to handle financial affairs.

Dreams and Goals

January 17 people need to adopt goals that help them deal with their desires. Understanding there is not just one path their life can take helps them deal more successfully with the possibility of failure. Once they achieve balance in their personal and professional lives, they are more likely to feel good about themselves.

Like a G6

2010-11-24T10:09:00.001+08:00

Everything behind have to add like a G6 :D

Boring like a G6

Fly like a G6

Tired like a G6

Love like a G6

& Party like a G6

Song bo~

Too bad that's my language.

MISSY TING

Because I can relate all these to me..

2010-11-24T01:19:00.002+08:00

One of the bravest things ever are TEARDROPS. Because tears are not afraid to fall even for the wrong reason.

When you thought you've moved on.. The person from your past returns and complicates everything.

I stopped showing what I really feel even if you still mean the world to me.. because I realised you're not worth the fight anymore.

There comes a point when you just have to let go and your heart a chance to heal.

When the heart takes over, the mind can't do a thing.

What's the difference between promises and memories? We break promises, memories break us.

Remember: Ignoring your feelings won't make them go away.

When you love someone, you'll do everything you can just to make things work.

When a heart is true, there's no need for words, because even in silence, love can be heard.

MISSY TING

unrecoverable fear

2010-11-23T18:57:00.002+08:00

I didn't let him go, I just decide to let go of myself.

I wanna let myself free from suffering.

I had enough. I guess the person I think of had change.

Please don't appear that would interrupt me.

But sometimes, I just wish that you care.

I rather love stupidly for someone else.

This time, I choose to move, not just let go.

But a scar is a scar.
Some fears are left there, unrecoverable.

I hope one day, someone will take those fears away.

Not you anymore. I will wait for someone else.

When you already left me long ago, now I choose to turn around and look at someone else.

I don't know what is holding me back.

Please don't do that to me, because I am very scared.

That the same thing happen again..

It hurts thinking about the fear.

What makes me tear is not sadness, but fear.

You see the impact you left for me.

She told me to ignore, ignore everything about you.

She told me that it is worth to fall for him, not worth if it is for you.

A random cry

2010-11-22T23:33:00.003+08:00

The person that can make you smile, can make you cry too.

I cried in class today. What a stupid act.

In class again. Got reminded the last time I cried in class.

Today was a random break down.

I was chatting with Jason.

And I was going into the emo mood, then I text Valerie.

When I receive the msg, my tears came.

Just like that. Don't know how to stop.

When I realize that I kind of like you, I am damn scared.

I don't dare to fall. I don't want to get hurt.

I rather protect myself first, but I fall on.

I cannot control. If I can control, I won't put myself in that shoes.

I had the fear that I cried for.

Thinking of it just make me fear, more and more.

She said I am just like her.

Things work out the way I didn't plan it to be.

I wanted to say, but time doesn't allow me to.

I don't want to spoil your day and I don't want you to be worry.

I will text you later and tell you next time.

Went to meet Valerie and Joel.

They cheer me up. Thanks.

She say he is worth the fall.

Reason

2010-11-21T20:45:00.002+08:00

I don't dare to fall.

I am afraid I don't have a space there in your heart.

I need to know that I mean something special first.

I know that when I start falling for you, I can't give up.

I am sorry but I am not a person who gives up easily.

I need a reason to.

So, can you give me a reason to let me fall.

To fall for you.

Is a promise a reason?

My heart need a strong and stable reason.

My heart is too afraid for anything else.

But with a reason, I am willing to risk love again.

I can be your diary.

Mike Posner - Please Don't Go

2010-11-19T11:58:00.001+08:00

TaeYang - I Need A Girl [태양] [HD/MV]

2010-11-18T01:19:00.002+08:00

relax and slack

2010-11-17T21:44:00.004+08:00

today actually i book Valerie for the whole day de, but hor.. Nvm. Haha.. I okay de la, she happy can liao. First, we went to do facial. Now face like chui only, coz all red marks so obvious. It was nice and painful. Gossips with her all the way. She submit her RJ. Oh wait, did she finish her RJ? Hmm.. cannot really rmb sia, too much that we talk about.

Went to eat KFC at marina square. Then walk to suntec to buy tiramisu ingredients. Then walk back to carpark at marina square to drive to central. Went to see Jr at his work place, first day of work. We discuss by ordering some chim stuff, then he duno where is the ingredients, still can ask us, we are customers leh.. haha.. biscuit and anything, just disturb nia. Next time can go down and buy ice-cream liao. haha.. or meet for dinner. then i acc Valerie buy sticky. then send me home. a very relax and slack day, but i like. because so comfortable. thanks Valerie for helping me. Care for your safety, 40km/h :D

2010-11-17T20:59:00.000+08:00

relieved but still fear

2010-11-17T20:20:00.003+08:00

that message relieved me a little,

but i still fear for some reason.

been through it, don't want things to be the same.

at least tell me this is real. everything.

before that i thought that you are like one of them.

i was really scared, because you didn't say anything.

i didn't know.

and sometimes you just mia.

i know that you're busy.

so many people that you are different when it comes to me.

to you, i am not some random person, instead someone special.

i like that. but all of these are not from you.

Bind with a promise. Unsure if I can trust this..

When it comes to the word trust, there are millions of question marks..

people around you, people around me.

talking about you you you.

they tell me things about you.

they tease me.

they got a nickname for me, not new for me.

"What's yr name?"

"Min Er"

"Water"

and therefore my nickname among them is mineral water.

Haha.. :)

Valerie told me about some things.

felt happy that u wanted to meet me after meeting them.

u wanted to meet me alone.

in the end, ytd you came to pick me to meet them.

i get to see you before you see them, with your new hairstyle. (haha)

i didnt know tekong was not in Sg.

I learn smth new xD

they wanted to go Rebel.

you didnt want to.

everyone wans you to go, they wan me to tell u that u should go.

then i was stuck in the middle. thanks.

One side, Valerie and everyone else.

Another side, you and your tiredness.

lalala talk for so long.

you see me stuck in the middle, then you finally said ok!

all damn happy..

went to change into shoes and head to rebel.

stick to me. joel ask you to go toilet also u dun wan.

protecting the girl :)

today morning i start to fear.

then ask those questions.

but at least i have msg that make me relieved a little.

that's the best msg you ever send.

save those sorrys.

at least i know what you think and your sincerely.

really just hope that this is real!

all i hope is you mean it, that's all.

MISSY TING

Our class blog is created

2010-11-15T00:43:00.002+08:00

Just created a class blog! Woo~

Funny blog name and title of blog.

Plus 2 videos. Give away!! HAHA!

Shall not share here.

If not later kena sue =x

Gossips! I like ;)

The Reason of a Daisy

2010-11-14T16:30:00.001+08:00

The daisy isn't perfect, but the reason behind it is.

Remember Master's Kindness :)

Let's the world decide

2010-11-14T15:50:00.002+08:00

I duno why Im looking forward to Mon, Tue & Wed.

I hope it dun disappoint me..

Because Valerie is coming back.

Too bored without her laughters and her craps..

Hahahaha..

Anyway Wed is a holiday.

I book Valerie, in the end I guess BF is coming to join us too.

Volunteering is so inspiring and motivating.

That is the right route to go, all the way.

When we die, we can't bring anything away.

Master will never let us down, never give up on us.

I always wish for courage and strength to carry on.

Because wishing for something doesn't work, you have to make it work.

Seriously, I don't know whether I am doing the right or wrong thing..

But I guess, it is always worth a try.

I heard so many things about you.

You come into my mind, when I think of memories.

At least it is not him anymore.
At least I dun think of him, dun break down, dun emo anymore.

I guess this is so much better than torture.

Let's it be. Just like that. Yea.

The song 2012 Rocks! HAHA! Random ;)

Someone Special.

2010-11-14T15:44:00.001+08:00

2010-11-14T01:13:00.001+08:00

I like this picture ;)

2010-11-13T18:14:00.001+08:00

You don't need to create beautiful memories for me, because it's You that draws a Smile on Me :)

MISSY TING

blogging like someone.. shh..

2010-11-12T13:27:00.004+08:00

Im blogging now. Like someone in my class.

HAHAHA! xD

Joke sia.

Moving away from yr laptop, pls lock yr laptop.

Because there is class culture that will go to yr laptop and comment smth bad.

Like whowhowho is hot or i love whowhowho.

all crap. Hahaha..

I kena liao. so sure lock laptop.

Because someone is putting laptop on his lap, so i follow.

But I really blogging hor. Later he sue me hor! :P

I dun feel like doing Essay sia!!! Wahlao.

Im in class is a Club E54R :D

Love those music man! Woo~

PS: Tonight I eating bird nest, that I duno contains wat ingredients.

I dun like Egghead

2010-11-12T03:29:00.002+08:00

This always happen to me when I 'lay down' on my bed, I tend to fall asleep.

I fell asleep, without finish/doing my RJ.

When I woke up, I saw the time. I knew it, then Oh Shit!

Nvm, I just finish my RJ and submit by email liao.

If this stupid Egghead, say I didnt submit RJ, HIS EGGHEAD WILL CRACK!

Today I late for a few mins, he put me 'not in first meeting'.

Wahlao. I told him, he say cannot change liao.

At first, he put absent leh.. Damn angry with him la.

DUN LIKE HIM TO THE MAX ! =X

I miss Valerie. She's in Milan.

I wana talk to her all day long. Haha..

Just so fun, so interesting. Loves.

Today I nv work. But usually work till siao.

So tired. Especially in school. HAHA! Can fall asleep sia.

Superman is busy with his life.

the girl doesn't have Superman...

Common Denominator

2010-11-11T10:29:00.002+08:00

If you weren't here, I am just half a equation. - Common Denominator

Valerie

2010-11-10T14:42:00.001+08:00

Dear, I am happy for you, really. I always hope that there is someone who really knows how to treasure you, protect you and love you. We don't know what will happen in future. But don't worry about anything else, cause anything happens I will be here, right here beside you. ♥

class time

2010-11-10T01:12:00.000+08:00

in school. in class. doing this.

Superman

2010-11-09T23:55:00.004+08:00

This is a story of Superman saving a simple and normal girl.

Once upon a time, there is a girl enjoying herself with her friends at a club called Rebel. It was her first time going there, she was perfectly fine with the environment. It is more a socializing with her friends and making new friends. That day was her first day working at Mapleaf and she was not really in a good mood at first.

She and her friends make a new group of friends that was really nice and friendly. They go around as a group. One guy like one of her friend. So two of them help to matchmake them together. They seems really cute together. They also feel the guy is nice and alright to be friends with. They keep on matchmaking them out and make them dance together and also getting numbers. They manage to do so, so cute little two look like an item, so sweet.

She is quite a good dancer, she dance and dance. Some guys came close to dance with her, she dance with some of them. She drank a little too. It was a holiday that day, too much people. Some guys came really close to her, which make her uncomfortable. The guy that got the girl number, ask the girl if she is okay with the guy behind. The girl say she don't like it, she wants to escape but don't know how. The guy help her, talk to the guy, wanted to text something on iphone to tell the guy off. But halfway, Superman appear! Superman look at what the guy type on his iphone. The girl didn't know what is going on, she don't know what they text and talk about. The next moment, Superman held his hand out to bring the girl over to his side and out of uncomfortable zone.

At first, the girl saw Superman from far, who is also her friend's friend. So the girl wanted to help her friend and Superman to matchmake. In the end... They dance together and had nice memories and happy chatting. Superman took care of her very well and also fly her home, to her doorstep. The girl felt comfortable with Superman, because she know if Superman is there, she will be protected at least. There was three pairs that are matchmake-d. It was a nice ending for the day.

The next day, the 3 girls went to a club called Powerhouse with other friends too. They were dancing at podium again. Some of the guys wanted to come join they in Powerhouse, so they waited. The girl found out that Superman wasn't there, she was a little disappointed, but she also told herself to smile and enjoy herself. She was very tired from work and school. She slept at 6.30 plus that morning and 7.15 awake for school workshop. Superman not appearing with them just make her a little down.

Powerhouse queue was too long, the two guys didn't manage to get in, so they ask if we want to join them at Rebel instead. The 3 girls went to Rebel and join in the fun. They drank and dance, the girl didn't see Superman there, which he is the main person of the event to celebrate for him. They went to the dance floor and dance. The two matchmake-d pairs was dancing together. They felt that something was wrong with that girl, she used to be a good dancer and dance very happily, but why isn't she. They ask her if she is alright, the girl say yes, just very tired. Actually they know what's wrong, they can feel it, they know it well. They wanted to help her, one of the guy also told the girl to call Superman, but the girl don't want to. She didn't message Superman about her going Rebel. She was trying to put a strong cover page, when the cover page is torn that true content can be seen.

In the end, they discuss and message Superman, but the girl didn't know much. She just stand there, not dancing, moving with the beat of the music. Soon, someone wearing black came into the picture. The girl looked up at Superman and smile. Finally her friends see her smile again. Everyone else was teasing her with him. But she was just glad to see Superman again. They dance for awhile. Superman knows that she hasn't sleep much that day, so he bought her to one side and sit down, so that she is not so tired. Soon, Superman decide to fly her home first. Superman saved her again.

Now, Superman is busy. The girl is back to her life, studying, working and enjoying. The girl don't suffer from flashbacks that affects her, she change the direction of her heart. Although, she is still afraid to love, but she is taking things slow. She is moving on, moving to another guy maybe. In her heart, she is crushed, but she is trying to make a smile out of the crushed heart. She don't know if Superman really likes her. She don't know whether she truly likes him too. But the only difference you can see that a message from Superman can make her smile just thinking about it. Her classmates ask her a different question now, instead of why so unhappy, they are asking what makes you so happy. See, there is a different. If things go on well, maybe we can really see her true smile.

Reason to cry, too many. Reason to smile, you just need one.

2010-11-03T23:43:00.002+08:00

for some reason im hungry.

nth to do, so decide to blog crap.

hmm.. this sem module is so much harder.

really. and those faci like...

dun need to comment la.

some of my classmates also...

hais. dun need to say who la. it is too obvious.

today i shall slp early if i can.

In life, there is more "No" than "Yes".

Too bad need to accept it.

There is nth much we can do.

Maybe my decision now is not right.

But what if it is not right, then what else can I do? Nth.

Rejection. Fine. What else? Come on.

If you want a rainbow, it have to rain first.

True.

Just let it rain...

Getting sick, getting sleepy, getting tired..

Just let it be.

There are things that we can control, some we cannot.

Don't need to avoid, no use anyway.

Life, life, life.

talking about life, i watch this movie ytd.

with my classmate, Jason.

not weird. we talk about sch n stories.

Life As We Know It.

Nice. Cute. Funny. Reality. Helpless. Understand...

You Again is Nicer i find.

That's all others stories, what's yours?

2010-11-03T22:58:00.002+08:00

someone calling me, it is unknown number.

then i read the numbers, found it familiar.

Refresh is the word.

2010-11-02T10:00:00.003+08:00

Love is fragile. Love yourself, because that's so much stronger.

The world is beautiful, the reality is ugly. Or.

The reality is ugly, but the world is so much more beautiful.

Which sounds more positive. 2nd one.

Ting Min Er just wanna be happy, not going to expect, not going to plan and not going to care.

Being happy is my only aim now. Every day, every day.

Look on the brighter side? Maybe.

Like I care. My fav line.

She is ___. Fill in the blanks. Because I don't care.

Finally, Cheers. Let's celebrate for my new aim.

I'll be fine. Doing whatever I want.

Smile everyday, Love yourself.

rest well

2010-11-02T01:03:00.001+08:00

was really happy to see a message from you.

thanks. i hope you slp well tonight.

Halloween

2010-10-31T08:24:00.002+08:00

Paintball & Powerhouse! Halloween! :D

Went to play Paintball with LS mates. Kind of cool.

At first, it was really scary that I dun feel like playing.

After playing quite fun la! Shooting people, shooting target.

I got hit a few times only, not direct. Paint-ful. Haha..

Got a few bruises from it. :(

Not forgetting Powerhouse that adds on.

I fell off and hit the stairs of the Podium.

Got a few more I duno where I bump into.

Powerhouse. Today was the first time, I felt so moodless when going to club.

I didnt drink alot, but wasnt drunk. In the middle, I know I control.

Because I dun wan history to repeat. :x

Papa & Mama overseas.

I think not enough alcohol to make me slp.

Although Im damn tired.! Interesting Halloween.

We left Powerhouse at 5, some went off early.

Valerie, LiWei, Peipei, Peipei's bf, Peipei's fren, Zinc, Zinc's bf. :D

Cecilia with her friends. We took pics tgt :)

Something make my heart beat again..

the truth

2010-10-27T22:25:00.001+08:00

I am not Emo. I am just telling myself the truth.

Don't talk to me like I am very sad, because I will feel worse.

i duno the purpose of posting this

2010-10-27T22:03:00.005+08:00

omg. i duno wat m i doing.. why i keep telling myself to stop, thn i think about you again.. i remind myself about how u respond, how u talk to me the last few times. i feel like im a true stranger or just a fb friend of you. my heart still sink, but not as deep. i know whatever i say now, is what im not suppose to say. i need to tell myself that i need to push myself forward n be strong. but how m i going to do that... here is the truth, im acting to be fine, esp in front of u. but the degree of being fine is not as high as how i react. maybe this is the moment of time that i feel like that. but i dun wana talk to anyone about it, because i will feel worse. i know what im feeling, i dun need others to tell me worse stuff, i dun need others to tell me how weak im. somehow very soon, i need to face u again, i need to act normal, act that im fine. sometimes, i wish that u are as affected like me. but i tell myself, that i dun hv this power to make u feel like that. u can just say im escaping, n i know somehow im. i was moving, but i think i stop at the same spot for awhile. i blog, i dun think u will ever read. maybe im just a nobody to u now, which kills me. i hate myself for thinking, still.

萧亚轩 - 错的人

2010-10-24T17:35:00.001+08:00

我太笨明知道你是错的人明知道这不是缘分但我相信有点可能

Resistance

2010-10-20T09:47:00.002+08:00

The FASTER you run, the More RESISTANCE there is AGAINST you!

Do you dare to go against the Resistance?

If not are you going to run or walk? Or even stop?

Then how long will you take to reach the line of success?

Whatever you do, there will be Resistance against you.

Dare to go against it. But in the right way!

I love COFFEE! :D

Cause it will make me HYPER! Woo~

It makes me HAPPY too! HAHA!

Look on the Brighter side.

If you think it is worth going for, then go for it!!!

Define your define "worth going for"..

Analyse before you say it is worth going for anot.

Wah~ RP influence me, blog also blog like this.

MISSY TING

A blessing in disguise

2010-10-18T10:50:00.002+08:00

A blessing in disguise.

Valerie & Min Er

She blog about me :D

So touched after reading.. Almost cry sia.

So nice to know her.
She understand how I felt, we are always there for each other,
never giving up for each other.

I think we both got fear, if one of us disappear then how.?

Rmb that time u ask me this question, if u suddenly dun contact me, what will I do?

I say I believe that u will not leave me, I will wait for u to reply me and contact me again.

We both fear. But we told ourselves we will not give up.

Finally, I understand the reason why things happen.

Thanks for those people that let me meet Valerie and get to know her! :D

Sometime my heart will whisper to my mind

2010-10-18T01:06:00.002+08:00

What upsets you is the memories you all share, not him.
You have move on, but maybe not fully.

But is okay. You'll be.

Sometime my heart will whisper to my mind.

Saying ...

Saying hey I miss those times, how I wish we are friends..

Watching movie together and chatting like those days.

But once I thought about the last msg I sent you, I think I shouldn't.

I don't know you didn't see it, don't know what to reply, didn't want to reply or that's the reply.

But I know, that's enough for me.

What hurts more is not that you didn't text me, is that you used to text sweetly everyday last time. :,(

This line used to be very painful to me. Maybe now I am still numb too.

We numb our feelings, not to get hurt and break down again and again.