Hais, I thought that when I am feeling down, go Volleyball will feel better. At least don’t need to think for the moment, but kns la. Coach didn’t put me with the team. I don’t think I am going to play POLITE le. CCB! Last year, my back pain and got so many seniors, so okay I understand. This time, no senior, nvm coach put juniors lo. WIN Liao.

I regret that time when I skip so many trg for someone that don’t even care. Skip so many trg just to cater to his timing. Now suffer liao lo. Sian sia. Going for trg, but not playing in the team means nb sian. But what can I do? Nothing actually. I duno why Coach dun wan put me in la, isiz because I nv go trg or because I not good enough. For whatever reason, I don’t wish to quit, I don’t want to give up on Volleyball. Cannot play in team, jiu go for the leisure and exercise ba.

Sian jiu sian la, no choice. My fault what, my bad. Nothing I can do. Just try to go for more training ba. I don’t mind training outside sia. But with who? Which team? Maybe go to my coach last time la, see he wana train me anot lo.

Feel like I really got nothing sia. Nothing is left, not even my favourite Volleyball. This post might be bias, because of my mood now. I don’t really know what is going on.

Why am I feeling down? Today I thought of smth stupid I did. When things is so obvious, why didn’t I react. Why he is so cruel and I still let him be and still fine with it. What’s my problem sia? KNS la. Is like someone slapping you, and you say “oh. Nvm.” Really man, what’s my problem?!!! Sibei pissed with myself. But nvm la over le.

I seriously think I moved on le, maybe deep down my heart there is a few percentage there. But I don’t want to activate the 5% maybe. But now I am happy with my life now. Just sometimes nothing to do or too bored ba. Now hardly will think about it le. I am fine now. really.

MISSY TING