Nothing can fill the gap. The gap in my heart. Mommy, I miss you so much and I love you.

there is smth i dont understand. although, i gave u choice, not that im not with what you choose, but more on the underlying reason behind it. when i was in your position, i will do whatever it is to socialise with your friends, treating them closer than some of my friends. i even go on a trip with all of them despite facing problems with them. i had the courage to, why not you. you tried, but in the first attempt, how can you assume the results. even when there are problems, i still face it bravely and overcoming it. i heard so many voices, but i still did. now there is chance, but you rejected it. maybe im just to playful, or maybe there is my personality. they are just questions yet to be answer. maybe i will answer it one day...