omg. i duno wat m i doing.. why i keep telling myself to stop, thn i think about you again.. i remind myself about how u respond, how u talk to me the last few times. i feel like im a true stranger or just a fb friend of you. my heart still sink, but not as deep. i know whatever i say now, is what im not suppose to say. i need to tell myself that i need to push myself forward n be strong. but how m i going to do that... here is the truth, im acting to be fine, esp in front of u. but the degree of being fine is not as high as how i react. maybe this is the moment of time that i feel like that. but i dun wana talk to anyone about it, because i will feel worse. i know what im feeling, i dun need others to tell me worse stuff, i dun need others to tell me how weak im. somehow very soon, i need to face u again, i need to act normal, act that im fine. sometimes, i wish that u are as affected like me. but i tell myself, that i dun hv this power to make u feel like that. u can just say im escaping, n i know somehow im. i was moving, but i think i stop at the same spot for awhile. i blog, i dun think u will ever read. maybe im just a nobody to u now, which kills me. i hate myself for thinking, still.