how i wish i know what u are doing, where are you. i have been staring onto the message for a long time, and it never fail to make me upset. i cry to slp and slp to cry, can u imagine me don't what i have done to make things like that. is it my fault, why do i feel so bad. i don't know what am i doing every day. it is so aimless, so no life. the whole seems to know that im upset, but i dun wan that. i dun wan ppl to think that im emo. im really trying my best to not think about bad ending. im trying to be normal, like what u wanted me to be. but it is not easy for me, i just started to trust you.